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well lets see, im sorry i haven't written, i honestly haven't been that that busy at work, i guess there's so much going on that i always forgot. Well today is thursday, whats going on? lets see, well Larry found this artist that he really liked and I found that artist page and sent him an email (totally not thinking he'd even read it) but I took a shot and asked if he could send Larry some motivational words since he's kinda been down about his art. And sure enough the guy did, right after I sent the email, it was great and surprising. to props to Mike Thompson. Plus Larry talked to Pat and that totally motivated him even more. Larry thanked me for the email and told me he really appreciates me being supportive and on his side. Im glad to help! It totally hailed on Tuesday over here it was like 39 degrees, we were freezing. um.. what else, there is something totally in my bed, i got bit like crazy tuesday night so i washed my sheets and vacuumed around the bed.. but last night i got bit again and crazy like freaken lookin like i got the chicken pocks haha. But my dad said he would go in there today and clean everything out.. which brings me to my last issue, i am taking my dad back to santa ana today... kinda dreading it.. as someone once told me "you can take the horse to the water, but you can't make the horse drink the water".. i've done everything in my power to help my dad and lead him in a better direction but no matter what it is ultimately his decision to do better, and if he chooses to faulter again, what am i to do but stand to the side... i have to focus on me and mine, i've tried, and i've tried.. its upto him. I feel sad taking him.. it's like i'm placing him in the middle of a road and i know a truck is bound to come and run him over... i'm returning him to this city and place that supplies the most horrifying lilfe... he's a grown ass man and i can't make his decisions or be his keeper... this man has haunted my life for so long, and probabley will the rest of my life, i just know what is best for me is to not have him living with me anylonger... i feel so torn inside. ugh!