Anotha Day

Yesterday I totally forgot to write, it was kinda buys at work, but still... Well tomorrow is the 6th, which is 2 years and 4 months. It's kinda weird, lately i've been getting this weird vibe from Larry. You ever feel like someone is just tired of you, it hurts, but at the same time, you try to keep your distance just to make sure they don't get that "tired" of you. But for me, it's like love out of a fairytale i swear. I think about him all the time, i get excited when ever he calls me, it's the feelings you get when you first start daiting someone, but here I am feeling it 2 years and 4 months later... thats what ever girl wants .. to always feel that.. BUT.. they want their man to feel the same way. Don't get me wrong i know he loves me, (he wouldn't have stuck around this long if he didn't) its just i dunno, maybe i'm trippin. Sometimes i feel like i'm the "stand by" girl, until he finds "the one".. and I feel like he is "the one". People always say in realtionships there is always one person that loves the other more, I can think of a hand ful of relationships right now, and pick out who loves the other more... With mine, i feel like i love him more.. its kewl to love someone sooo much, i'm just really needy and i need someone who's gonna let me know they love me sooo much, and can't be without me on a regular basis, not just in an argument.. i'm like getting emotional right now writing this, i just feel sooo torn right now. i wanna call him and be like "hi baby i love you".. but i just feel like he's gonna be like "hey" and that kills me... it's like a slapp in the face. I know he has a lot going on right now with him self so i'm trying to be understanding and give him his space.. honestly i'm just feelin really heart broken =(



*tell the person you love them every possible moment that you can, because you never know if that's going to be the last possible moment to tell them that.*