Wishing for change

Is it so wrong to wish for some things to change... things that have might been a certain way for years.. just to change.. some people say if it aint broke don't fix it.. but damn, it might not cause you issues, but it causes me issues... i jus wish people could see what i see.. or feel what i feel.. then maybe they could somewhat say "i understand" and mean it... i don't wish death upon anyone.. i never would.. sometimes it's better off if peoople just moved on.. if you see your presence cause issues.. why not.. i know i would .. sitting on this thought today. i hope it will pass

Believe

Yo! so today is somewhat of an "in depth" day. I received this link today http://www.maniacworld.com/are-you-going-to-finish-strong.html
It is a very very touching one. Makes you really evaluate your life and the things you appreciate or the things you don't...
With that was the conversation of belief's. It is easy to say "yes I believe in this..." but unless you have full faith in it... your belief doesn't mean anything.. it's like "actions speak louder than words".. you can say you believe, but unless you trully do, the perks of believing won't apply to you. I believe in Larry very much, I do. Ever since I met him there was a spark about him... not just cause I fell in love with him, I mean as an individual, I've always seen something special in him. He has a great talent, and a strong head on his shoulders. There are many things that have tried to block his path to success, but no matter what he still continued on. Not many people can say that... sure after falling down once or twice you get back up... but to be knocked off, pushed off, fallen on your own.. etc etc.. to get back up and try again... A lot of people don't have that desire, that drive, that motivation, but he... he does. I applaud him and admire him for that. But every one has that down moment, where they feel like "this is it, this is as good as it gets"... it's just a matter of moving on from that point and getting over it... "this too shall pass" and with that said, and with the video clip shown.. appreciate what you have in life, the gifts, the people, the love... and know that without strugglle there is no progress and when you think you aren't going anywhere.. stop and take a break and look around.. you might be suprised to find out you're practicly where you want to be already...

"Life is like climbing stairs in the dark you think there's so many more steps ahead, so you take that next step up, and the next thing you know, you're already at the top"

Missing In Action

Yo! So I have totally been M.I.A. you don't even want to know the ordeal.. infact if you're reading this.. thank you for being a loyal reader.. I know I've left you for quite some time.. Christmas time was great being with the kids, my mom, and bf of coarse... Got into a fuss with my sis, which I don't care to get into... some times you come to a point in life when you realize just because you are blood related does not mean that you have to get along.. i've come to those terms.. tired of the b.s.

New Years was not that great. I would love more than anything to say it was ... but the point is.. everything is a learning experience and everything happens for a reason.. I DO NOT Regret things in life. I learn from them. I've learned to never take life for granted and to never make the same stupid decision twice. I'm sorry for those that I have hurt and I deeply feel pain for what I have caused you. I am not alone in this world... I understand. Now the year is about appreciation. Appreciation of friends, family, quiet time, going out time, my boyfriend, my pets, of everything.

"When the day-to-day is a trapeze act let go like you mean it, if other hands don't quite grab yours, there's a big wide net. It's made of all the bounce back strength you haven't used yet"

Tis the Season

Well tis the season to be jolly right.. Christmas shopping, Christmas drivers, and Christmas stress lol.. Hey but it wouldn't be Christmas time without all that right? lol Well I won't really have much time to write this week due to all the crazy holidayness... lol but i"ll try. if not then have Happy Holidays.. A Happy Christmas and a Merry New Year.

work work work

omg can we talk real quick how work is crazy busy.. i can't even breathe, i barley could make it to the restroom.. i swear.. i don't even know how i'm attempting to type right now lol... i.... need.... a..... break!

Rainy Days

Ever notice how the rain makes you want to just snuggle up at home infront of the fire? The gloomy days... the rain hits against the window slowly dripping down... I love the rain. I despise the drivers that act like it's not raining and drive like 80mph, and then there's the drivers that think because it's raining you have to drive like 30mph ont he fwy.. wtf lol. Ugh! killing the joy of the rain. haha. well Larry's home today, so hopefully I'll get home and get to snuggle in bed watchin a movie or something... Yay! In other news.. the Lakers won last night. The dude from "americas most wanted" finally had his son's case closed which started in 1981. And my puppies were taken to go get spayed today.. i'm soo scared for them. They have to have surgery. Mooh is only 7 months but Lala is 4 yrs old... I hope they're okay... =( I just want to pick them up and snuggle with them too. hehe

Life isn't Eazeeee

haha, you're probably thinking "no shit" about the title.. but seriously, I was having a convo with the better half this morning, and we've come to terms with life just gets harder and harder lol. My man is soo gifted and talented he has plenty of options for his future, but for a man that has troubles making decisions when he is presented with options this might be hard for him lol. He has to look at it as a blessing not a curse. Plenty of people would love to be in his shoes, don't get it twisted - he appreciates what he's been blessed with, it's just a matter of what to do with it next ya kno... I think everyone goes thru that, I know I do. I'm blessed with the gift of being a good listener and comforting people, everyone comes to talk to me... EVERYONE lol my work office is like a therapy room I'm surprised they haven't bought me a couch hehe... it's just a matter of doing something positive with it, like going to skewl and getting a degree in Psychology... but then when it's "work" will I enjoy it the same or will I dread it.... ugh, life isn't Easy let me tell you hahaha... well that's whats on the brain right now... thinking positive and knowing he'll make the right decision, the right decision is whatever is best for him and will make him happy... gooooo Lareeeeze!

Myspace

Hello All. well this weekend was pretty kewl. Larry had to work overtime on Friday night so we had dinner and just chillaxed. Saturday we went shopping then to dinner at Cheescake Factory (yummy) and then to the moives. We saw "4 Christmas's" and something about the earth dieing world ending.. they were both pretty good. 4 Christmas's was hillarious. Sunday I went to my moms and spent time with the kiddies and larry relaxed. Then I went home and just chilled. We watched the Laker game and crashed...

On another note, I have entered back into the world of myspace. It was more just to keep in touch with friends that I have lost along the way. . . I don't want no drama on it or nothing. Just strictly friends and family. and to keep me occupied at work. I'm still working on it, so I haven't sent any request out yet. But I will. Let's keep our fingers crossed hehe