Today's a Great Day!!!

First let me say HAPPY HALLOWEENY!!!

*Today's the day that for the freaks to come out and Play.. I love this day! hehe Just don't end up like these pumpkins! =)

Then let me say CONGRATULATIONS! to Brenda, her baby boy was born this morning, aww how exciting I can't wait to meet little Xavier... PRECIOUS!

*Not much to say today.. It's partly gloomy outside, perfect wheather for Halloween. I hope to finally get to be with my nieces and nephew for Halloween. I'm soo excited. Yay! Have a good and safe weekend. Talk to you on Monday.

CHANGE

The US has def been going thru sh** the past 8 years. Our leaders have demonstrated no sense of concern for our needs, only their own. Obama is up for change, and that's honestly what this world needs. I think depression is one of the biggest problems in the world today. So many people are unsatisfied with their life trying to get by. No one has enough money to do anything, to go anywhere, and this causes problems. Relationships are filled with arguments, anger, stress, and breakups. Marriages are filled with financial difficulties, divorces, child support, stress, and anger. And the single people are burdened with having to carry the weight of the world on their shoulders alone... NO ONE IS HAPPY... and it's sad that we've come to this. It takes an evolved understanding in order to deal with what the world gives us today. The tainted education that has been passed down by those that have lost their desire to teach has corrupted young children today. There are very few teachers out there that still have the strive, the drive, to CHANGE the world by teaching the children that will lead tomorrow. It's a half a** program that leads them to their own destruction. Leaving the parents to try and reeducated the mislead. Will we truly gain higher meaning if Obama leads us there, I have begun to think so. He will fulfill the hopes of many. Will take on the tasks handed to him. This will help the people to function correctly again, this will hopefully make all those depressed feeling deteriorated. The people have stopped sitting in a silent desporation for change, and have chosen to follow an individual that promises to give this... I have an issue with men in my life keeping their promises and leaving when times get hard... it has left me with a sad impression of men, I have faith that Obama will change this indented stamp on my heart... it will no longer read "broken" it will read "CHANGED"....

Submit Your Vote

Hey guys, do me a favor and Submit your vote... where? at this website http://www.poetry.com/publications/search.asp?First=felicia&Last=alcaraz&search=Search for my poems... click on any of the titles read it and then at the bottom click the icon that says "rate this poem" and then you can rate it.. the more raitings I get each day the more of a chance i have to get my stuff published (YaY!) Also be sure to click on all the little links on the side of this blog page, I earn points for each click and possibly get some money in my pocket.. I know this doesn't really help you out much, but it helps me... and it's always great to help out a friend... if the link doesn't work you could always GOOGLE me.. haha seriously http://www.google.com/ enter Felicia Alcaraz and my blog plus one of my poems will deff show up... so gooo. doo it! what are you waiting for hehe... Submit your vote...

*oh yah, there's also like a presidential election going on right now, so you can go vote for that too hehe..

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This is a love I have never had before,
Everyone says that, sure,
But I honestly can say when God sent you my way
He knew he had a plan that he had to put in play.
Love was unexpected for both you and I,
Infact at first we both didn’t want it but…. Love we could not deny.
It fell into our hearts and overwhelmed our lives.
We didn’t want to be apart and the “future” is what we had insight.
I didn’t think this kind of love would be bestowed on me,
I thought it was only in those old fashioned love stories.
But we found each other and have made it last,
Even though we have ruff times you always got my back.
That’s more than I can ask for in any relationship, I’m a complicated chick,
With a lot of issues inside me, still you’ve accepted me completely.
When you act like an old grouch and try to push me away,
That’s when I try to love you more and let you know I’m here to stay.
I get on your nerves at times, and you get on mine,
But that’s what loves about you know I aint lyin..
Ups and downs,
The rounds and rounds,
The cycles that continue and break,
The habits you change and the ones you just take.
It’s all what you make of it,
If you see it continuing or if you can’t handle it.
You’ve become a part of my inner core,
Somewhere no one’s ever been before…
That means more to me than you’ll ever know
That we are one and won’t let go
I can’t count on a lot of things in life,
I just know I love you very much,
And someday …. Maybe… I’ll be your wife.

©2008 Felicia

Every Sixty Seconds You Spend Upset is a Minute of Happiness You'll NEVER Get Back

I've always tried to express to people when I first meet them that time is the most valuable thing to me because it is something you'll never get back, be able to make up, or change. I don't regret anything in life because I feel there was something at that moment in time that made me do what ever it is that I did. Feeling sorry about something is completely different than regretting it. I normally try to be a cheery person, pretty outgoing, and upbeat. I don't like to be upset, sad, or mad. I honestly feel it is a waste of time to hold a grudge or not talk threw problems... the time spent mad at eachother could be the time spent making up. (Making up is sooo much more fun).. I was sent this quote today

***"Every second spent upset is a Minute of Happiness You'll NEVER Get Back"***

Man oh man did this hit home... I've noticed over the past few months, I've spent soo much time angry, crying, upset, hurt, sad, mad... every emotion except happiness... yah there is brief views and moments of it here and there... but honestly, I've been a huge burden on friends and family because I always got some issue in my life I'm venting about... sure no one's life is perfect and i KNOW there are people out there with bigger issues than mine. I've been looking at the cup half empty, and thats not like me... I don't hold grudges... I hated going to sleep mad or upset, and now thats nothing to me.. I could easily fall asleep in an argument with someone... I've fallen away from "me" .. i've lost myself.. i've waisted plenty of minutes of happiness that i'll never be able to get back... I don't want to lose those minutes of happiness anymore... i don't. I gotta get it together like India Arie says "you have to heal your body, heal your heart & get it together"

Weekend News

On a lighter note... hehe... Sorry about the other blog, I had to get it off my chest. I hope not to offend anyone.. PLEASE DON'T READ IT if you don't want to read the mean side of me.. haha. anywho so Friday I did shoot out to the fam bams and chilled for a minute. Larry went to Ricks to play some XBOX.. and Saturday we went to Claim Jumper and to the movies.. we calculated that for someone to go on a date to dinner and a movie it's basically like $80 now.. that is just CA-RAY-ZEE! it was like $40 for dinner. $17 to get in (student discount woo hoo) and $19 for a water, a drink, popcorn, & candy... it was more for snacks then to freaken get in.. man oh man. We saw Pride and Glory ( a great movie ) and also The Secret Lives of Bees -- you know I had to go see it, shoot alicia keys, dakota fanning, and Queen latifah those are my girls... woo. It was an awesome movie, very touching, sad, happy, and sooo much more... Will Smith and Jada did a fabulous job directing that movie. Deff tear jerker, Felicia's rating give it two thumbs up a MUST SEE movie. hehe. Sunday was chill day and Nick's gathering, which is always fun to see everyone hangin out and laughin.. yup that was the weekend in a bundle. Today' monday (back to work day) ugh... Larry's gonna be at mi casa when I get home, so ima cook some dinner... yummy!

Restricted

Please do not read if you don't want to read cursing or witness me telling someone off.... okay so all my life I've been that girl that most girls hate.. whether it was because they thought their man liked me, or I liked their man, or because I was good friends with their man, or simply because they were jealous of me. Basically bitches have hated on me all my life (thank you to those that made me their focus). To new comers in my life, they ask me "doesn't it bother you that they hate on you" and my response remains the same "if i was new to the game perhaps it would, but i've been dealin with that b.s. all my life so it don't faze me." yup, I got the blocked calls, crank call, random text and all that b.s. all my life, they probably waited for a response or some lashing out and they didn't get it from me. Unless you had the balls to confront me in person then your bitch ass wasn't worth my time. And if you ever had the guts to step to me (which very few ever did not even a hand full) they got dealt with and never stepped again. I'm not tryin to make it sound like I'm some hard ass, back then I really was a youngster tryin to make my indent in the world. and now I deff see it as childish and stupid. But when I get restricted calls none stop from some one hanging up or staying quiet then texting me to stay away from their man and I HAVE NOOO CLUE who it is... wtf. You won't tell me whoo you are or who your man is, so how am I suppose to stay away.. then you want to make comments about my family... I'm 23 years old and don't chill or really talk to anyone of my age or younger, they are all older (i specifically do this because I thougth that they would be mature) and you're pulling some high school b.s. Come on! On Saturday night I literally got 23 restricted calls, if you have nothing better to do with your self on a Saturday night then to think of me and call me all night, I really must be something special to you or that big of a threat.. and if I am that big of a threat maybe you should be checking you MAN and not me.. IF you didn't know I'm in love and in a relationship which I write about daily, catch the clue, my man satisfies me and my needs so I have no reason to go else where or def not to some triflin bitches man like yours... You're always gonna have haters it is inevitable (especially for me) and as you get older you'll learn to ignore them more and more. I just wanted to express that being the hater is more work then being the hated... GLAD TO SEE I KNOW HOW TO PUT YOU WORK BITCH... step to me now, I called you out!

Oldies But Goodies

So I added a new playlist on my blog... some oldies but goodies... kinda in the mood for some chill old skewl cuts. I hope you enjoy. There are no meanings or hidden messages behind any of these songs, just a list I thought would please my daddy. hehe. You should take a listen to it, just might make you reminisce. =)