In a World Full of Chaos

In a world full of chaos it's nice to know you have people who care about you. Often times you feel as if though you are being tugged in multiple directions and feel like you're going to be ripped into pieces... but it is the people that surround you that hold you down. Family, friends, loved ones, and even pets can remind you of how precious your life is. I'm 23 and still trying to figure out what I am going to do with myself & my life. I want to finish school I do, financial aid is just sooo troubling. I have an opportunity to be a Riverside Sheriff I just need to get myself in shape and pass the physical agility test. I could always take the Pharmacy Tech Test for $150.00 I just need to freshen up on my configurations and generic vs brand names but I know I could learn it, it's just a matter of taking the time to learn it. Ugh, I do have a kick back job here, I'm good at what I do and get it done efficiently but my pay vs taxes, 401K and bills just leaves me hopelessly stagnated. I know I know I'm only 23 people tell me that all the time, I just don't want to find my "career job" when I should already be established ya know? Luckily when I feel I'm being torn in all these directions, I can take a breathe talk to my mom, sis, Gill, or even Dad. I also have loved ones like Larry's mom Mrs. Dixon ( a wonderful woman I am glad to have met) or if she has time his sister Mika... I always have my friends here at work, Coco who always seems to relate to everything I'm saying, Bee who always sees the brighter side of things, K who can make me laugh no matter what the situation and tell me the honest truth without me feeling offended-threatend-or hurt, or even my boss Sheila who is a great listener and always says the right thing even if it's nothing at all. If everyone's busy (which is ok everyone has a life) i can always confide in my babies.. haha I swear Lala is one of the greatest listeners ever... =) and now my blog, I write to you when there is no one to call on.. haha. . . well what am I gonna do??? I have NO clue. I know you might be thinking why didn't you say you can talk to Larry? well he is an automatic, a guarantee... hehe, sometimes he's sleeping, or busy stressin on his own thing, I don't want to burden him with my thoughts that can easily be talked about with someone else. . . but if I ever truly need him he is def there. . . . .

Well in my world full of chaos I just want to lay in bed and think, I love to plan and make goals, just gotta get that back into effect... I've kinda fallen off from that part of my life. Ugh, as my favorite saying goes: Lord Grant me the serenity to accept the things I can not change the courage to change the things that I can and the knowledge to know the difference...